I wanna say thanks to you. Even things are all changed, we are now thousand miles apart, you still care about me. That does warm my heart.
You remind me owe you a dinner. You ask me not to disappear again like last time. I think it won't happen again cause now both of us have understood that we are friends forever. Just friends.
And I appreciate that you have loved me. That sweet memory will be with me the whole life. My lovely youth.
I didn't know much about you, even I thought you were my true love this life.
Not on purpose but just can get your latest status via our friends, blogs, facebook, plurk. I could not help but wondering why should we have so many RELATIONSHIP platforms nowadays? If I could choose, I prefer to keep your smile in my mind, not your repeatable story fulls of lies. Not blame on you, just have a feeling...That was really close. We didn't walk too far to the end.
But I do miss you. When the mid-night I fail to sleep, the early morninig I wake up, or the moment I am with myself.
I am on my way to dream world.
35 yrs old, spending all day with my liitle girl and learning how to be a good cook.
Is is too far away from what should be in this age? What do you think that life shoul be like ? Do you enjoy what life you are right now. I am proud to say, yes, I do.
After working over 10 years, proabaly not having too much saving, we never ceased to brave to chase after our dream in our vigorous youth. Making our unforgettable, treasurable family memory that we can memorize in the future.
There is always something make me feel anxious. I clear know that I have such sensitive personality. It wasn't me before.
Maybe it is a good chance to help myself to return innocent, to release myself to abroad for about 2-3 years. S told me not to worry too much. Take it as a long vacation and we would proabaly come back when he got the degree or spent our last penny.
It is life, isn't it?
Work hard to earn money, then enjoy the pleasure that money brings.
I am going to States for new life with my love S and baby girl. There might be lots of challenges coming, amazing life experience as well at the same time. Better or worse, we are together.
It's almost completed.
Though I've interviewed for American VISA twice, I still can't help being anxious. I even dreamed I was interviewing last night.
Miyeong wrote me yesterday and mentioned about her wedding in June. She did marry the guy with sex lips,haha. I miss her and the Korean cuisines.
Euro didn't sleep well these days. Last night she tried to cross out the bans to me but failed. I could help but wondering when did I have a non-interrupted sleep. It should be in April, my business trip to HK. Not complain my lovely baby but I do wish to have a really relax again.
The relationship, no matter it exists in friends or families, sometimes people doesn't concern it as serious as you do.
Never fight with crazy/ stupid guys. If you do so, people will fail to recognize who is the crazy/ stupid one.
Just take it normally. Then you will not be ached so hard.
S mentioned that if he was awarded to renew his term of 2010 MVP, sice the MVP conference will be held in Seattle, in Feb. 2010, and we should be in States already, then we could be ahead together.
WOW~~ Can I except?
Yesterday S took Euro to shoot a picture for applying her first passport. The picture looks so cute but Euro forgot to close her mouth, so funny. haha~
All we can do is wainting, patiently.
The application has been sent by agent. They told us it takes around 12 weeks to receieve the result, about early December.
鏡片後你的眼睛總像是蒙著一層霧，我能看得透玻璃卻望不進你的心。
像是知道應該有一些什麼，卻總停留在猜測和遲疑，就怕答案揭曉，不論猜對或猜錯，都會打破原有的平衡，恐怕再也不能笑得自在。
依稀記得上一次奮不顧身，不考慮後果地吻上某人的唇，彷如是上一個世紀的事，但每每思及，那心跳臉紅，胸口漲熱的感覺，卻又如此熟悉，令人懷念回味。事隔多年常不免慶幸，幸好那時做了，不然隨著馬齒漸長，儘管思考的邏輯愈趨縝密謹慎，對於愛情卻再無殘存一丁點任性一吻，跨過那層紗的勇氣。
六合夜市，老高雄人都不會去的地方，近年來在政府、民間的包裝下，變成了高雄市商業氣息濃厚的觀光景點之一。記得上一次來約是8年前吧！和老公剛認識，約會沒事到處亂晃的年代。
搭乘捷運紅線，從美麗島站11號出口出來，就是熟悉的六合夜市入口。穿梭在人群中，操大陸口音的倒比說日文、英文的多了。今天的目標不是鼎邊銼不是擔仔麵(明明就是台南名產就是不知為何在六合夜市的介紹中出現)，而是是老字號的紐西蘭牛排。弟弟說起這間牛排館時，記憶像是不經意翻倒的水杯，杯裡的水倏然傾洩。那一段曾經不願想起的年代，現在是格外懷念。
約15年前吧！實在記不得正確的年份，但父親因為外遇和母親離婚的事，倒是再過50年都很難忘掉。本來以為婚後只需好好相夫教子的母親，面對婚變後竟然意外堅強，甚至可以說是忍辱負重，也開始重新走入職場。唯只高中畢業的母親，無一技之長，只能在鹽埕區的新樂街上，在當年頗為盛行的電玩間當兌幣人員。一個月不到1萬元的薪水，總在每月月初支薪後，騎著破舊機車(當時也很流行的：美的90)，和我們三姐弟四貼從新田路舊家騎到六合夜市的紐西蘭牛排館打打牙祭。那個年紀每月都能吃上一次牛排，可讓眾多朋友及表兄弟姐妹間羡慕不已。只是當時天真無知的我還以為這是父母婚變後的福利，是種補償。忘了到什麼時候停止這樣一月一次的活動，但隱約記得，最後一次媽媽同樣要帶我們去吃時，我以要和朋友出去的理由而缺席，對於母親眉頭一閃而過的失落，故意裝沒看見。之後就不記得有再一起去了。
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[May 13, 2009]
<<總結今天攝食總熱量：360Kcal+8顆小煎餃>>
早餐 (共336Kcal+8顆小煎餃)
老媽準備了小煎餃和特調醬油,為了不讓媽媽吃太多,我很夠義氣的夾了8顆,還加了個荷包蛋(熱量120Kcal)~~<---故作壯士斷腕的熱血啊~~
藉著連續出差2天外宿的機會，晚上和老友相約餐敘，約在台北火車站二樓微風廣場美食街。
四個人中有一個人減肥中不吃油炸和含糖過多的食物，一人是素食者，一兆堂鍋物是涮涮鍋，挺適合的。服務人員推薦我們點四人套餐，其中有一鍋是素食的，正合榮秋之意。
長大了後，會忘記童年單純的快樂；離開學校後，就能體會只需用功讀書的單純生活才是最幸福；進入家庭後，即使沒有每天柴米油鹽，工作和一堆莫名其妙的瑣事，大腦總不時浮現Out of Memory的警訊。
Exercise! No Excuse.
一旦決定，就不輕易放棄。透過運動，我實現我的人生哲學。
將運動計劃條列於行事曆上，若是完成，就以不同顏色的筆確實槓上兩條線，有自我宣示征服的快感。給自己打分數，我只有1和0。全力以赴是1，放棄就是0。1未必代表成功、勝利或排名，而是一種完整、負責和自我實現的態度。
我平常不太選擇吃到飽餐廳的。
普遍壞印象是：1.時間限制，吃飯有壓力。2.食材雖多但粗俗，口感賣相都不僅。3.價格通常都不低，潛意識會因想撈本或眼睛太餓而吃得過飽。
偏偏我老媽很愛，去年12月31日這天，拗不過她的要求，陪她到鳳山的鮮都 麻辣鴛鴦火鍋，這一去，一試成主顧。至今為止，共光顧超過20次了。
